September 5th, 2006

september 2009

I need some advice...

I'm a 24 year old diabetic (Type I) aspie transman with DID/MPD. I'm also a recovering anorexic (or so they tell me) and when I get more anxious or stressed, my OCD and anorexia seems to "flare up". I start gender therapy on Monday (unless she cancels again) and hope to legally change my name and start T sometime this school year.

I guess I am mainly asking for advice on how to calm myself down. My coping skills don't seem to be working and I haven't eaten today. I'm too nervous to eat. I've tried painting, writing, listening to music, breathing, taking a warm bath, watching movies, reading - yet it doesn't seem to be working. Any other ideas? I'm also getting strong urges to cut (No SI since January of 2005) which I am also battling.

I guess I'm worried the gender therapist may decide I'm not fit for transition. Ironically that made my problems flare up more, just worrying about that.

- Isaac
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