On the question of orientation how many of you identify gay/bi/gender queer. Do you think it's attributed to the folks in your system or host?
We are working through in therapy the possibility of being bi if not gay.
Hi I'm Matt and now feel like I am at some kind of support meeting or something...
Anyways. Our body is 34 and we range anywhere from 4 to 38 or so and gay to straight to bi. We think there is about 18 of us. Some not of this world. Matt the host is 25 and is living as him self as a man making us a FTM.
We have all sorts of parts and wanted to know if others let their parts run around on LJ? Some of the guys are really digging the FTM personal community. What are your thoughts.
Oh yah we are now legally married to a women that supports us mentally and we really don't wont to betray her
Hi I'm Sam, a 31 year old trans guy(FTM) who's also the core personality to a System of 13 alters(ages 1 year to 41) and various genders. I came out a year ago and began to transition, went full time as of January 8th 2008 and almost quit in April of this year because I thought I couldn't be both trans and DID.
It took alot of courage and self understanding tor realize I can live with both and am much happier being myself(male) and my System benefits ten fold from that.
Sometimes I feel alone among the online LJ trans groups because I have DID and go about my day a bit differently than other trans guys my age; thanks for letting me join.
(crossposted to transabusevic and maybe somewhere else)
from the ages of 2 until i was 21, and even a few times after i left home
he was a good man in public. loved. compassionate. caring.
i feel sad because he was starting to accept me as his son.
relieved but scared because the nightmares and flashbacks will never cease
guilty about my relief
furious at G-d for not giving me a chance to get some closure...for both of us
he'd been better lately. so much better.
we (my entire system and I) were pretty damn close to even forgiving-
But, he died. Is it a sin to speak ill of the dead who cannot defend themselves? Spent all last week saying nothing but good thing after good thing. maybe we can't talk about it any more. maybe we won't. secrets and silence-
now, he'll never get to see me start T
but i dont have to worry about my kids...
i dont know what the fuck we are supposed to do with this
i want death. i want blood. i want burns.
i'm confused and i'm overwhelmed with all the bad shit that happened to us BEFORE his death, this semester
my therapist seems to think i'll get through this.
so do my friends.
i don't think i'm as high-functioning as i have led them to believe
i'm liable to disappear for a few months, the first chance i get- maybe i won't come back even
or i could stay inside, let an angry gay boy live my life for a while...or maybe even a blank state
catatonia sounds very appealing
i am so fucked.....
(Please let me know if this post is offensive or not allowed and I’ll delete it promptly.)
(For anyone who doesn’t know me, I’m an almost 17 year old out lesbian high school student from Sydney, Australia.)Well, this year I’m in my final year of school in Australia and I’m doing my Higher School Certificate (that’s, um, like the equivalent of the final college exams for you Americans and Brits) and one of my courses is 2 Unit Drama. For this I have to present a 6 – 8 minute Individual Performance and I wish to write a piece based on the life of a pre-op transgendered person (at the moment I’m thinking FtM but that may change) to try and challenge myself and raise awareness and acceptance. For this reason I’m asking anyone who is willing to talk to me about their experiences as a transgendered person (FtM, MtF, post-op, pre-op – it doesn’t matter, any help would be invaluable to me) to help me compose my piece. You can email me at email@example.com. Also, any transgendered people in the Sydney, Australia region who are willing to meet up with me, especially FtM, would be absolutely fantastic. Thanks so much guys.
Love Liv xxx
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