I guess I am mainly asking for advice on how to calm myself down. My coping skills don't seem to be working and I haven't eaten today. I'm too nervous to eat. I've tried painting, writing, listening to music, breathing, taking a warm bath, watching movies, reading - yet it doesn't seem to be working. Any other ideas? I'm also getting strong urges to cut (No SI since January of 2005) which I am also battling.
I guess I'm worried the gender therapist may decide I'm not fit for transition. Ironically that made my problems flare up more, just worrying about that.